When I started this blog I promised that it would look at the good, the bad, the ups, and downs of trying to lose weight, get healthy, and be happy. Today’s post will hit on all of the above. Saturday got off to a less than grand start. I decided against getting up at 5:00 am to make it to Charlottesville for the 5K. I needed the rest, no doubt, but it put a little damper on my morning not to be there. I went to the gym instead and did a workout that I know I am better than. Last week blogger Andrea talked about giving a workout her “all”. This post really had me thinking, What has my deal been the last couple of weeks that I havent been doing this? I think for me it comes down to fear. Losing weight before meant getting to a tough spot and backing down. This is the first time I havent backed down and it is a little scary for me. A couple of weeks ago I posted about how this is normally the time I part ways with a diet plan but this time it is not really a diet plan. It’s my life. There is not the option to just stop this time. I truly cant place why I get so crippled with the fear to keep going. Maybe its being scared of failing. Maybe its being scared of not knowing what is supposed to happen next. I have been feeling uneasy lately. My hubs said today that the first step in getting past that is to admit it. So I admit to you that I am overwhelmed. The changes I am making are huge. A 30lb lost in 7 weeks is big but I still have so far to go. Sometimes I feel like I havent even gotten started. My first hill goal this week is One week of full on, the best I can be, giving all I have and then some workouts. I am going to push running aside this week (as I have tended to get very down on myself when I don’t see improvement as quickly as I want it.) This week will be all about me and gym. No distractions of intervals, time, etc. Just basic good old fashioned sweating.
Saturday steadily improved as the hubs and I traveled to Roanoke to celebrate pal Kristen’s Birthday. I was so excited to give her the cute flip-flops and OPI polish I got her. It was in my newest favorite shade “Jade is the New Black”. I decided to sport a new dress that I had bought during my errand running earlier in the day. I am loving the more structured clothes. Good riddance to the stretchy materials of last summer!
She had her birthday dinner at Macado’s where I had a couple fruity adult beverages..
This one was called Killer Kool-Aid 😉
…and a turkey sandwich on pumpernickel. I have to admit the best thing about this sandwich is the super dark bread. Pumpernickel is one of those weird breads that I love but rarely see on menus. Also, kudos to Kristen’s wonderful family and pals for not making fun of my taking pictures of the food. 🙂 Speaking of bread, blogger Melissa has recently posted some pictures of some awesome looking bread. It is almost enough to make me want to learn to bake!! But back to my dinner, somewhat caloric for what it was but yummy nonetheless.
The night was a lot of fun and to top it off Kris had gotten Bubblecake cupcakes for dessert. The good friend she is, she remembered a to-go box for me so I could take mine home and cut it in 1/2 to have later in the week. Strawberry lemonade cupcakes-YUM!
Even the cake part was pink. YAY!
My Sunday morning again, did not start as planned. The first weird thing is that I was craving junk food. I wanted a chicken biscut which is strange. I have not really craved fast food since I started this journey. Instead I made my own version- a meatless “chicken” patty by Morningstar on a Natures Own sandwich thin. It was pretty good.
I was all geared up to hike The Peaks of Otter and my husband asks if we can wait until next Sunday since he is super sore from two rounds of disc golf yesterday. Instead we decide to have a date. I went out sporting another Spring outfit that I heart.
Our first stop was lunch where I had some vegetarian black bean soup and 1/2 a turkey/spinach/artichoke panini with onions and tomatos. YUM!
Next stop was the movies where we saw “Date Night”. I loved it and we both laughed a lot. Also, we went pretty early so we had the place to ourselves all rock-star style. 😉
Bryan also stopped on the way out at the little kiddie coin machines. Carebears were my favorite as a kid and he decided to score me one of the little plastic bears to sit on my computer at work.
Pretty cute huh?
After the movie we went furniture shopping for a new bedroom suite. Do we have a winner here?
After our date I went back out to run errands. During this outing I was feeling hungry so I am ashamed to say I went through the drive-through and ate a happy meal. Yes, it was gross. Yes, my stomach is killing me now from the grease and yes, I had a terrible emotional reaction to it. I think that there was something more going on today (first with the craving this morning and then this happy meal incident). This brings me to my second hill goal for the week: Commit 10 minutes every night to journal writing before bed. I need to figure out what is going on with me. My final hill goal for this week: No negative self-talk. I think that is really important to any diet or exercise program. This is the part where I need to get a handle on my thoughts/feelings about the weight loss before I sabotage myself. What do you do when you start to feel frustrated with the process? What helps you through those feelings?
Carrie and Harlow don’t love me any less for making a mistake today. I should do my best to feel the same way. 🙂
I thought a lot today about where I was only a few months ago. What I did today with the happy meal would have been nothing back then. I thought a lot about all of the failed attempts in my past to get fit. Here is what I have come up with: All of the failures in the world can be in your past, but it only takes once to get it right. I am getting it right this time. I wont let where I have been determine where I am going. Tomorrow is another day and my Green Monster ingredients await!!
Have a Happy and Healthy Sunday Friends~
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